Angela's Blog

I know, it's been kind of a lot lately, but bear with me. Just thought I'd give another update.

Boy, yesterday was HARD!!! I did not have a good day! Was just sort of overwhelmed all day with feeling ugly. The pins and needles in my face are really hard for me to deal with. It just feels like I look like a stroke victim. The whole left side of my face still feels paralyzed. I know it's not, but it still feels that way. And it does move less than the right side of my face. WTF?!?!? What I would give to just feel pretty.

We stopped by the ICU yesterday at Harborview to thank some of the nurses and just check-in. They all told me how good I look, but of course, the last time they saw me I was swollen and in a coma. I know, I know, stop beating myself up. It's just really hard, that's all.

And then a little later I totally felt under attack. The enemy was telling me all kinds of things, and they sounded so true. He was telling me that I should feel bad for Josh that he ever married me since now I've ruined his life. And that I do nothing now but make my husbands life harder and make him sad all the time. He told me that I am just a big reminder of the accident and everyone would be so much better off if they didn't have to take care of me everyday. That I am just a big downer and all I do is make people sad. Not good! But at least I was able to recognize it as attack and I prayed for Jesus to defeat the devil and shed light on truth rather than lies. And it worked. God is so good! And He does love me! I am His daughter and He will always intercede for me for when I need Him! Phew! That is some good news! Because I was pretty lost before I called all that back to mind.

Any prayer you can spare for me on this front would be much appreciated.

Thanks,

Ang