Angela's Blog

What a crazy couple of days it has been!!! Josh going back to work was harder than I even thought it would be. Wow!!! I try to console myself by just laying in bed crying every morning and snuggling his empty side of the bed. It is really hard! And it hasn't gotten any easier yet. Although I find the rest of my day is better if I just have a good, hard cry first thing. Then at least I don't spend the rest of the day fighting back tears. Sometimes I do anyway, but it seems to help at least a little to let it out in the morning.

All kinds of stuff happening too. Lots of big, new, first steps. All week my mom has been with me but today she had an appointment and had to leave. It's the first time I've been left all alone without someone coming back soon. It was pretty scary. But I survived. Lots of tears today, that's for sure. And then I went to pool therapy for the first time without Josh. Also really scary. Lots of tears for this too. But now I'm home from the pool, I have to shower, and then I'm all alone just waiting for Josh to come home from work. Again, you guessed it, more tears.

And I'm trying to gear up for all sorts of other kinds of changes too. I finish Rehab Without Walls next Friday and then have to figure something out for outpatient. Again, scary! Especially since I don't know if insurance is going to cover it at Harborview. So it might either be pay a pretty penny or try to explain all about my accident to some new doc who doesn't even know me. Never a dull moment. Any prayer surrounding this transition would be much appreciated. I know God'll put me right where I need to be, but it is stressful and scary nonetheless.

I think that's about all I've got for now.

Thanks for keeping up,

Ang