Angela's Blog

My God, I still feel good. Maybe this shift is here to stay!?!?

In fact, I think it just might be because I got bummed out yesterday, processed it, worked through it, and ended up in the same great place I started. Hallelujah! I don't know what brought this on but whatever it is I'll take it! I'm still feeling really good. I don't feel trapped in my injury anymore. It is so freeing and liberating to actually feel like myself before the accident just hurt. And not hurt forever, just for a little while.

I did have a pretty hard time yesterday. While in my PT appointment I got pretty bummed out. My PT has a student right now and she is learning lots and pretty much driving the PT for now. She noticed that I have trouble with planar inversion and rotation out while standing. I can do it while sitting but not standing. When I'm standing I rotate from the hip with my whole leg rather than just at the ankle. She was asking my PT what he thought I should do about it, they were talking PT talk back and forth, then my PT said that no matter what I just probably won't get that movement back. It was just surprising for me to hear him say that my gait would just forever be lacking this; that I'll never have it back. I've never heard a therapist say that before. They've always been kind of like cheerleaders always talking about what I will get back not what I won't. So needless to say there were a few tears when I got home. It's not even that this rotation is super important. I may never have had it. But it was just hard to hear about something that I couldn't get back. So I cried for a while and felt pretty crappy for a while and then got over it.

So here I am now able to look back on it objectively. I can see why I got upset, be okay with that I was upset, and not be upset now. This is all new. It's the first time I don't feel like I'm drowning in emotion. I actually feel okay with that I was upset and okay with that I'm not upset now. Ahhhh, progress!

Besides that I just started going back to the chiropractor. I'm glad to be back. But it is just another thing I'm doing that might really be helping me but I won't be able to attribute anything to it specifically because I have a whole handful of new things right now.

Oh, and one other thing. I have some really cool before and after x-rays to show all of you of my arm. Here's the before: